On a lighter note ...

My dog is the cutest :D

Biopsy of my lung Monday.

I am completely over taken with fatigue. The moment I open my eyes, I begin to nod off having conversations, typing on the computer, ect. What ever I'm doing, when ever i'm doing it, my body thinks I should be in bed and tries to send me there. I've been sleeping nearly the whole day, everyday. I wonder if there is a medication to keep me up? So most of my weekend I've spent in bed,  the rest in worry over the biopsy. They are basically going to go through my breast plate to my lungs and remove tissue to see for sure if it is cancer. All fine and dandy except that they do not intend to put me to sleep while they do this.  Call me crazy, but I really don't want that to happen. It completely horrifies me. So My Dad is going to come with me, he's better at talking to people then most anyone I know. Hopefully he can get them to knock me out. 

Oh so sleepy...

             So I've been at my chemotherapy, and radiation treatments for a week now.  So far its bark is louder then its bite. I was terrified the first day I had to lay in a mold, face down, under what looks like an xray machine. Not knowing what it would feel like was definitely the worst part of it.  I actually couldn't feel a thing. Just hear the buzzing of the machine as it moved. They say that it takes a few weeks for the side effects of that to show themselves. Then there is the Chemo.  Getting the pick line (semi-permanent IV) put  in  was  wholly unplesasent.  They numbed my arm with the same stuff the dentist uses, then guided an IV up my shoulder into the center of my chest, GROSS! Then for the chemo, I sat in a chair while they went through all the warnings, and chemical spill instructions (just in case).   The nurse attaches the liquid filled ball to the pick line/IV. "This is going to drip a constant stream of chemo into your blood stream 24/7 for one week. Then you'll come in and have a new one put on, and so on, and so on for 6 weeks". It only took a few days for the side effects of that to kick in.  I'm perpetually tired, nauseated, and dizzy. I don't feel like eating, and nothing tastes good. In short it sucks. Thankfully I have the weekends to myself. Going to the hospital every day gets old really fast.  I can't wait for this round to be over so I can go do something fun.  We're thinking Vegas, I've never been. I'm not much for gambling or clubbing, but I'd really enjoy a show or two. Maybe a nice restaurant. 

I hate pain medication!

I hate pain medication! I spent the morning thinking about all the meaningful things I want to write, putting it loosely together in my head. Then I took my pain medication. Now it's all a jumble. I'm nauseated, dizzy, weak, and foggy.  I can't for the life of me figure out why anyone would choose to live in this condition, for "recreational" purposes. in addition this paragraph has taken me entirely too long to write. I will be back when I am sober. Have a wonderful day in blog land. 

My First Blog.

My Sister Sasha just came over and showed me how to use blogger.  I have never had a blog before, so this is new to me.  We'll see how it goes.